REGRETS.

Yesterday I turned out loud AVICII
today, secondhand serenade is on
Replay~

It was the day I came back after the 9-days trip
to the place I used to wake up every morning.

It was the first time we both ever talked since then
really, many things have changed
I'm not surprised because it was the same for me, too.

Staring at the buildings and people of the city
moving through the clear window
with music so loud
figuring out, thinking.

There are approximately at least one
unfortunate person in every second
who was hopeless
decided to end it, this life
I'm not afraid to tell that I was
thinking someday that I could be the one.

As for hazel graze (The Fault In Our Star)
I'm a Grenade
there were so many, too many things
bursting, wandering around
chemicals (emotions) mixing, adding up
waiting to explode
I couldn't help but to shed a tear.

For real, I've never turn up to someone
crying or sharing my problems
Not because I don't want,
but because there was no someone
No one seems to be there or care
I don't blame them though,
because if it was me, I won't too.

But I'm afraid, what if this will stay
Forever?

Because everyone else seems to be okay
They can continue those conversations
They have identities
They have something
They are extraordinary.

And then, there's me,
the kid who got nothing.

Though,
There's this one picture I've always imagine
A Y-shaped intersection
Two different ways
And that I'm in the middle
Hesitating to decide
Will I be able to turn back
If I was wrong ?
Is there any chance of going back to
the middle when I took a step front?

I thought of every little things
that may help me relax
But there's always a battle inside of me
No, it's the other way around
Yes, you should do that
No, what would people say
No, don't care what other people say.

I don't expect anyone to understand
Because I don't, neither,

Regrets.
One day when I read these
30TH JULY.

chasing vision.

Shadows settle on the place, that you left
Our minds are troubled by the emptiness
Destroy the middle, it's a waste of time
From the perfect start, to the finish line.

And if you're still breathing, you're the lucky ones
Cause most of us are heaving through corrupted lungs
Setting fire to our insides for fun
Collecting names of the lovers that went wrong
The lovers that went wrong.

We are the reckless
We are the wild youth
Chasing visions of our future
One day we we'll reveal the truth
That one will die before he gets there.

And if you're still bleeding, you're the lucky ones
Cause most of our feelings, they are dead and they are gone
We're setting fire to our insides for fun
Collecting pictures from the flood that wrecked our home
It was a flood that wrecked this home.

Well I've lost it all, I'm just a sillhouette
A lifeless face that you'll soon forget
My eyes are damp from the words ou left
Ringing in my head, when you broke my chest
Ringing in my head, when you broke my chest.


Daughter - Youth

Results!

Assalamualailaikum and hai dear followers :)

It has been a decade i dont update my blog since I am short of time. Furthermore, after entering university life for about 2 years, I realized no matter how much I miss to update my blog, I have to resist my desire to update it. And right now, Im on my summerbreak which is about 3 months and half. Heaven I could say right :D

So, firstly, back to the main topic, I have just finished my second year study in dentistry at Egypt all praised to Allah. I have any plan during my holidays, so thats why i plan to update my blog in spite of improving my English skills.

So, recently I've got my second year dentistry result. I've got mumtaz, I cant be no more happy than knowing that I can make my parents proud and happy of me. Yes, to reminiscene back what I've been through for almost a year during my second year study. It was hard, indeed. But all of these obstacles disappear as a dust once I get flying colour results. I believe without Allah's help and doa from my beloved and without my usaha sendiri especially, I cant get mumtaz.

So, here's my achievement :

• Dental Materials : mumtaz
• General Anatomy : mumtaz
• Physiology : mumtaz
• Histology : mumtaz
• English : mumtaz
• Sirah Nabawiyah : mumtaz
• Hadith : mumtaz
• Quran :  mumtaz
• Dental Anatomy : jayyid jiddan
• Biochemistry : jayyid jiddan
• Tafseer : jayyid jiddan

I believe that no one would read my posts but who cares I just want to improve my English skills. So thats all byee

EXAM FEVER

Assalamualaikum.



Sekarang tgh exam fever~
3 more papers left (Physics, SnsComp, Arab)
Even muzaharat semakin kuat day by day,
exam keeps going on (:
there's no excuse for us to skip exam jz because of egyptian's politicians ^.^
ok. so please pray for our successness !
Mumtaz in sha Allah :D amiinnnnn~

pure beauty

Woman whose face was glowing with beauty was asked , what make up do you use ?

She answered :

For my lips , I use truth
For my eyes , I lower my gaze
For my hands , I give the charity
For my voice , I speak kindly
For my figure , I wear Hijaab 
For my body , I perform my Salah (prayer) regularly
For my heart , love for the universe
For my mind , Faith and Islam
For my soul , obedience to Allah S.W.T

Let us think about this (":

A note to remember

Assalamualaikum

Kita bangun dari tidur
apa yang mula-mula kita cari ?

Handphone mana ?
Kunci kereta mana ?
Nak makan apa pagi ni ?
Nak pergi mana hari ni ?

Rasulullah bila mula-mula dibangkitkan di padang Mahsyar ,
apa yang Baginda cari dulu ?
"Aina ummati ya Hiibril?" -
(Di mana umatku wahai Jibril?)

Cintanya Rasulullah pada kita
Rajinlah berselawat (":

trip to Acheh

the best feeling :))

• sleeping in late
• have no homwoork
• being liked/loved back
• first swim of the summer
• a smile from that special someone
• hug that last more than a minute
• when someone tell you that you smell good
• when he texts you first
• looking at picture from when you were little
• being called beautiful
• when someone tell you that they never want to lose you
• finding those jeans that fit perfectly
• making a stranger smile
• listening to your favourite song
• receiving hand-written writng
• putting on sweatpants after wearing jeans all day
• winning an argument
• packing for a vacation
• knowing you will be okay

normal human being~

Assalamualaikum ,

she wears hijab , but ...
laugh loudly ,
sometimes can't control herself with her guy friends ,
always wants to be loved by a man ,
not properly cover her aurat ,
use harsh words when mad .

others may say ,
"what kind of muslimah she is?"

stop .
enough with your judgement , because ,,

she is just a normal human being ,
she makes mistakes ,
maybe it is not nice to see her being like that ,
but like what i said before ,

she is just an ordinary girl ,
a normal human being ,
who makes mistakes ...

move on .

Assalamualaikum ,


no matter what i do 
no matter how many times i screw up and think to myself 
"there's no point to carry on"
no matter how many people tell me that i can't do it
KEEP GOING
don't quit 

don't quit because a month from now
i will be that much closer to my goal than i am now 
yesterday you said tomorrow 
make it count . ((;

Do not waste your time looking back on what you've lost . Move on , for life is not meant to be traveled backwards .