Survive.

Assalamualaikum wbt.

Ive got some story to share with you guys. On that particular day, I submitted my requirements to the lecturer. She commented this and that and finally gave a quite low marks for my requirements.

I was a bit sad. Not a little bit actually. I am truly sad, but I began to cover my sadness by making a genuine face in front of others. But deep in my heart, only God knows.

I have been practising very hard on requirements days and nights. Hoping so that my marks worth the efforts. Unfortunately no. 

After pondering for a while, I realize that Allah always give something more and most beautiful behind every failure. Allah ArRahman and The Best Planner. Ive been thinking if I get higher marks for every requirements, I must have been very comfortable for those marks and proud. And feel like I dont have to work hard on this practical works. But Allah gave me a low marks, so that I can work harder and always remember that repeated failure is the key to success :')

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On that day too, a friend came to me and told her story and her sadness. She has the same case with me. I am speechless. How to comfort her as me myself trying hard to comfor myself.

Anyway, I gave her all of my consoled words and what I truly feel. It was a bad day, not a bad life. We still can improve ourselves. There will be hidden blessings behind the failure. We have to be positive in Allah. 

To those out there, always believe in everything that happen to you is by Allah's will. It is always correct. No mistake. Approach Allah, recite and listen to Al Quran whenever you feel down. Hoping that we all can survive in this world. InsyaAllah.

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"Do not give up halfway."
I whisper to myself.

Fall down 7 times, stand up 8 times. 

Penat.

Penat. I feel so exhausted. This month marked one of the hustle and bustle month. It was 3rd Dec but I can feel the tiredness.

Lecturer has started to make quizzes. Next week, each day is occupied by quizzes except on Tuesday.  Why do I even pushed my self soo hard to study and sometimes I concentrate more on duniawi instead of ukhrawi.

Did I mean to live in this world to study till I succeed? Reminder to myself and you out there, hoping for weolls to balance between our duniawi and ukhrawi.

Even if you study hard till you hurt your phalanges, break the bone or cannot even get a good sleep. If Allah said kunfayakun, no one else can deny it. Study hard and pray hard too. Success surely comes from Allah.

Falling.

I thought...

I have fallen in love with this song 
Keep repeating this song over and all over again :p
The lyrics too are good and nice to hear :)

Falling - Alex G. & Tyler Ward

And the conversation was right
Underneath the shade of moonlight
You were standing there
With sun touched hair
And your dress the colour white

Like an aeroplane
I took flight
Fell in love with you that first night
Cause you danced with me
And I could see that there was more to life
I'm falling (2x)
In love with you
I'm falling (2x)
In love with you

Just before the strike of midnight
You said "this could be a good life"
And you say "goodbye hope that I can see you soon"
Then I walked for several miles
Couldn't rid me of my smiles
Cause you found me and I found you
In this lovely month of June

I'm falling (2x)
In love with you...

good memories.

I miss travelling.
For these past two months, being busy with the kuliah and others commitment,
I cannot even have a proper vacation and rest.
Hoping that someday I would be able to travel all aroud the world
and can take all the good things from other countries, insya Allah.

Awh and the picture above is at Notts if Im not mistaken :)

Hope.

No matter how hard it is
You feel like giving up halfway
Look back.
Look how you can survive all this while
Allah will not burden a soul beyond what he/ she can bear.

I know its hard
It is hard for me too
But you gotta do it 
Because it is the only choice that you have.

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On Thursday, I had ODs and CBs lab for about 6 hours. We have to make reductions and cavities during the lab sessions. I had never complain or sigh doing my work. I enjoyed doing these things right from the first class. 

But not on that day. I need to make five requirements for CBs. I worked till my back and phalanges hurt, but never have I complain. Doing my works patiently, hoping that someday I can make reductions of tooth more perfect than lecturer's. Amin :)

It was a tiring day, indeed. Maybe because I am doing my requirements at eleventh hour. Pheww I really have to change my way of planning. I usually make some jokes and chatted happily with my partner. But she can notice how I am being silent on that day no matter I tried to hide my expressions.

However, no matter how hard it is. Do not give up. Always remind yourself  that you have to sacrifice everything in order to get one thing which is precious to you. Yes this is the life cycle that we need to endure.. 

Always tajdid your intention. You study not to pass the exams only but to gain knowledge in order to make it easier for your future course :) You wanna help the needies so you have to learn by heart, digest the knowledge till the end. You must not remember the knowledge only on exams. After exams, you will easily forgot all the details. Nauzubillah :(

Hectic day.

Today marks the most hectic day in a week. Starting with pathology lab, microbiology, and pharmacology at medic's faculty and I rushed to dentistry's faculty for Al-Quran's session. Phewww the distances between the two faculties are unjokeable I tell ya.

I made some  differences  to myself to face this hectic day. I will neither stay up nor wake up early to revise my revisions. I would ensure that Ive got 6 hours of deep sleep. Not skip breakfast and others.

Just to ensure that I can focus 100% at class. Anyway, to achieve success is not easy I tell ya :') We have to sacrifice everything in order to gain one thing. Do not lose hope to all my friends and me too.

Always remind yourself to tajdid niat. You learn not because you want to pass the exams. You learn to gain new knowledge in order for you to make it easier for your future course. InsyaAllah everything will be alright ;)

Convocation '16

Assalamualaikum wbt.

Yesterday was history, but it had left a deep meaning to my heart. Seniors's graduation day. I was impressed by them , students who were able to finish their studies successfully. Seeing them wearing those huge robes with round hats , how can I not teared up? Deep inside of my heart, I vowed to wear them gracefully in front of my family, insyaAllah 3 years to go :')

Many ppl from all Nation came to the Salah Kamil's hall.Their faces were glowy and shining brightly. They smiled broadly. Yes of course they would be up on cloud nine on this special event. Who doesn't, right?

I as one of the Representatives of Food and Beverages, did my chores. I was very busy going upstairs and  downstairs,back and forth to the cafe and vvip rooms to ensure that everything was running smoothly. Sometimes i peeked at the graduaters. Some were having breakfast w their families, some were chatting and giggling w their friends while others were nervous to wait for their turn.

Alhamdulillah the convo ended smoothly. We take a lot of pictures as memories. For the short post, I apologized as I am running out of ideas to write on this evening cloudy day :p

Surely will write a good one sometimes insyaAllah.

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The Almighty knows.

The words you cannot utter 

But keep in your heart.

The pain and sorrow hidden

Never doubt that His help is on the way. 

Praiseful.

Assalamualaikum wbt.

Last night, after finishing the PAD Program at Darul Hamka, Echa and me went to hadiqoh to finish up our Microbs homeworks. It was a cloudy and windy night plus me wearing only a piece of cloth without sweater. You feel me rite when a cup of hot syai does not feel hot anymore in my throat. That was how the weather can be described :)
Believe me, it is not the peak of winter but early winter. •.•

Back to the story, I craved for crispy chicken crepe later. We went to pizza iman and bought two crepes. Aww the taste was marvellous and perfectly fit with my appetite. You can say that I enjoyed the food too much when your friend realize that you smiled broadly when eating that.

It was late at night after fulfilled our stomach. We walked to our house. Otw I am happened to see a man( he looks matured) otp with his friend maybe. And he is really really small. I thought maybe he has abnormality in his anterior parathyroid gland that lead to a dwarfism.

I ponder to myself. Suddenly I felt so sad. How can I who is perfectly perfect, have complete pencaindera yet still not thankful enough to Allah. Still want more. Meanwhile, outside there were too many ppl who are praiseful and proud with their weakness and live peacefully.

Yes, Allah tak tengok pun orang tu lawa ke tak, pandai ke tak, baik ke tak untuk Dia masukkan kita ke dalam syurga. Allah tak pandang pun semua tu. Hanya amalan-amalan jariah yang kita buat kat dunia nie yang Allah nilai. Let's collect the pahala together so we can go to Jannah together :')

Sedangkan orang luar yg cacat, yg kurang upaya boleh bersyukur dan bahagia dengan hidup mereka, why not us? So, kadang2 we should lihat orang yg di bawah kita in order for us to reflect our life. Jgn tengok orang atas kita. Sampai bila tak bahagia kan? :)

So, I hope that weols can always be thankful to Allah, believe in Allah and always remember Him in everything we do. In everything that we do, utamakan Allah. Make Allah is priority to us. InsyaAllah with the remembrance of Allah, our heart is at peace.

Ive got a lot in my mind, but till now I should stop. Jiwa yang bahagia itu jiwa yang bersyukur :)

Tuesday
3/11(4.14am)