Marks.

Kerapkali aku cemburu dengan markah orang lain. Sometimes, I envy my friends that get higher marks than me :( 

Dear Anis, firstly, you should be praiseful to Allah, for at least you don't get the lowest marks. Cuba pandang ke bawah, dan reflect diri.

Secondly, rezeki orang lain lain. Alhamdulillah Allah bagi kat dia rezeki dapat markah tinggi, tapi rezeki aku, insyaAllah Allah akan bagi the most excellent marks during the final exams. Amin.

Thirdly, Allah nak suruh kau berusaha dengan lebih kuat. Jangan lupa, BERDOA. A lot. Dekatkan diri dengan Allah. Pasti ada hikmah Allah tak bagi the best marks untuk aku buat masa skrg. For He knows what is the best for me :)

Fourthly, please don't compared yourself to others when studying. Its okay to compete, but jangan doakan yang tak baik2. If they get higher marks, be happy for them. Kita kan nak sama sama berjaya san graduate right. So, be happy, always :)

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I sighed. I complained. "Why did Allah burdened me with something beyond I can bear?" Sometimes, I lose hope, wanna be away from this crowded people and live in my own world. 

But, believe me. Allah give His ujian to His hamba because He cares for us, He still love us. Imagine if you live comfortably in this world, you are in comfort zone without His ujian, He leaves you alone.    You are happy outside, but it was empty inside. 

Indeed, ujian tu pengajaran bagi orang yang beriman. Find the hikmah behind all those ujian that happens to you. 

Me.

Nak menangis, tapi aku tahan. Esok exam, tulat ada presentation, requirements tak siap lagi. I really cannot burst out my tears, tonight. 

Too many problems occurred especially when it comes to housemates. Mentally exhausted.

Allahu. T.T

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O Allah when I lose my hope, help me to remind that Your love for me is indeed greater. 

Demi Allah aku tidak kuat. Tapi kerana Allah aku harus kuat.

exam weeks.

Everytime I would ask myself. "Ya Allah, permudahkanlah aku dan rakan rakanku dalam belajar, dalam menimba ilmuMu di Mesir, dan kuatkanlah ingatan kami."

I depend totally on Allah. For He can give us victory.

Currently, I am in exam weeks. Pray for us. Moga kami berjaya dengan cemerlang amin. :)

Survive.

Assalamualaikum wbt.

Ive got some story to share with you guys. On that particular day, I submitted my requirements to the lecturer. She commented this and that and finally gave a quite low marks for my requirements.

I was a bit sad. Not a little bit actually. I am truly sad, but I began to cover my sadness by making a genuine face in front of others. But deep in my heart, only God knows.

I have been practising very hard on requirements days and nights. Hoping so that my marks worth the efforts. Unfortunately no. 

After pondering for a while, I realize that Allah always give something more and most beautiful behind every failure. Allah ArRahman and The Best Planner. Ive been thinking if I get higher marks for every requirements, I must have been very comfortable for those marks and proud. And feel like I dont have to work hard on this practical works. But Allah gave me a low marks, so that I can work harder and always remember that repeated failure is the key to success :')

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On that day too, a friend came to me and told her story and her sadness. She has the same case with me. I am speechless. How to comfort her as me myself trying hard to comfor myself.

Anyway, I gave her all of my consoled words and what I truly feel. It was a bad day, not a bad life. We still can improve ourselves. There will be hidden blessings behind the failure. We have to be positive in Allah. 

To those out there, always believe in everything that happen to you is by Allah's will. It is always correct. No mistake. Approach Allah, recite and listen to Al Quran whenever you feel down. Hoping that we all can survive in this world. InsyaAllah.

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"Do not give up halfway."
I whisper to myself.

Fall down 7 times, stand up 8 times. 

Penat.

Penat. I feel so exhausted. This month marked one of the hustle and bustle month. It was 3rd Dec but I can feel the tiredness.

Lecturer has started to make quizzes. Next week, each day is occupied by quizzes except on Tuesday.  Why do I even pushed my self soo hard to study and sometimes I concentrate more on duniawi instead of ukhrawi.

Did I mean to live in this world to study till I succeed? Reminder to myself and you out there, hoping for weolls to balance between our duniawi and ukhrawi.

Even if you study hard till you hurt your phalanges, break the bone or cannot even get a good sleep. If Allah said kunfayakun, no one else can deny it. Study hard and pray hard too. Success surely comes from Allah.

Falling.

I thought...

I have fallen in love with this song 
Keep repeating this song over and all over again :p
The lyrics too are good and nice to hear :)

Falling - Alex G. & Tyler Ward

And the conversation was right
Underneath the shade of moonlight
You were standing there
With sun touched hair
And your dress the colour white

Like an aeroplane
I took flight
Fell in love with you that first night
Cause you danced with me
And I could see that there was more to life
I'm falling (2x)
In love with you
I'm falling (2x)
In love with you

Just before the strike of midnight
You said "this could be a good life"
And you say "goodbye hope that I can see you soon"
Then I walked for several miles
Couldn't rid me of my smiles
Cause you found me and I found you
In this lovely month of June

I'm falling (2x)
In love with you...

good memories.

I miss travelling.
For these past two months, being busy with the kuliah and others commitment,
I cannot even have a proper vacation and rest.
Hoping that someday I would be able to travel all aroud the world
and can take all the good things from other countries, insya Allah.

Awh and the picture above is at Notts if Im not mistaken :)