Survive.

Assalamualaikum wbt.

Ive got some story to share with you guys. On that particular day, I submitted my requirements to the lecturer. She commented this and that and finally gave a quite low marks for my requirements.

I was a bit sad. Not a little bit actually. I am truly sad, but I began to cover my sadness by making a genuine face in front of others. But deep in my heart, only God knows.

I have been practising very hard on requirements days and nights. Hoping so that my marks worth the efforts. Unfortunately no. 

After pondering for a while, I realize that Allah always give something more and most beautiful behind every failure. Allah ArRahman and The Best Planner. Ive been thinking if I get higher marks for every requirements, I must have been very comfortable for those marks and proud. And feel like I dont have to work hard on this practical works. But Allah gave me a low marks, so that I can work harder and always remember that repeated failure is the key to success :')

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On that day too, a friend came to me and told her story and her sadness. She has the same case with me. I am speechless. How to comfort her as me myself trying hard to comfor myself.

Anyway, I gave her all of my consoled words and what I truly feel. It was a bad day, not a bad life. We still can improve ourselves. There will be hidden blessings behind the failure. We have to be positive in Allah. 

To those out there, always believe in everything that happen to you is by Allah's will. It is always correct. No mistake. Approach Allah, recite and listen to Al Quran whenever you feel down. Hoping that we all can survive in this world. InsyaAllah.

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"Do not give up halfway."
I whisper to myself.

Fall down 7 times, stand up 8 times. 

Penat.

Penat. I feel so exhausted. This month marked one of the hustle and bustle month. It was 3rd Dec but I can feel the tiredness.

Lecturer has started to make quizzes. Next week, each day is occupied by quizzes except on Tuesday.  Why do I even pushed my self soo hard to study and sometimes I concentrate more on duniawi instead of ukhrawi.

Did I mean to live in this world to study till I succeed? Reminder to myself and you out there, hoping for weolls to balance between our duniawi and ukhrawi.

Even if you study hard till you hurt your phalanges, break the bone or cannot even get a good sleep. If Allah said kunfayakun, no one else can deny it. Study hard and pray hard too. Success surely comes from Allah.

Falling.

I thought...

I have fallen in love with this song 
Keep repeating this song over and all over again :p
The lyrics too are good and nice to hear :)

Falling - Alex G. & Tyler Ward

And the conversation was right
Underneath the shade of moonlight
You were standing there
With sun touched hair
And your dress the colour white

Like an aeroplane
I took flight
Fell in love with you that first night
Cause you danced with me
And I could see that there was more to life
I'm falling (2x)
In love with you
I'm falling (2x)
In love with you

Just before the strike of midnight
You said "this could be a good life"
And you say "goodbye hope that I can see you soon"
Then I walked for several miles
Couldn't rid me of my smiles
Cause you found me and I found you
In this lovely month of June

I'm falling (2x)
In love with you...

good memories.

I miss travelling.
For these past two months, being busy with the kuliah and others commitment,
I cannot even have a proper vacation and rest.
Hoping that someday I would be able to travel all aroud the world
and can take all the good things from other countries, insya Allah.

Awh and the picture above is at Notts if Im not mistaken :)

Hope.

No matter how hard it is
You feel like giving up halfway
Look back.
Look how you can survive all this while
Allah will not burden a soul beyond what he/ she can bear.

I know its hard
It is hard for me too
But you gotta do it 
Because it is the only choice that you have.

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On Thursday, I had ODs and CBs lab for about 6 hours. We have to make reductions and cavities during the lab sessions. I had never complain or sigh doing my work. I enjoyed doing these things right from the first class. 

But not on that day. I need to make five requirements for CBs. I worked till my back and phalanges hurt, but never have I complain. Doing my works patiently, hoping that someday I can make reductions of tooth more perfect than lecturer's. Amin :)

It was a tiring day, indeed. Maybe because I am doing my requirements at eleventh hour. Pheww I really have to change my way of planning. I usually make some jokes and chatted happily with my partner. But she can notice how I am being silent on that day no matter I tried to hide my expressions.

However, no matter how hard it is. Do not give up. Always remind yourself  that you have to sacrifice everything in order to get one thing which is precious to you. Yes this is the life cycle that we need to endure.. 

Always tajdid your intention. You study not to pass the exams only but to gain knowledge in order to make it easier for your future course :) You wanna help the needies so you have to learn by heart, digest the knowledge till the end. You must not remember the knowledge only on exams. After exams, you will easily forgot all the details. Nauzubillah :(

Hectic day.

Today marks the most hectic day in a week. Starting with pathology lab, microbiology, and pharmacology at medic's faculty and I rushed to dentistry's faculty for Al-Quran's session. Phewww the distances between the two faculties are unjokeable I tell ya.

I made some  differences  to myself to face this hectic day. I will neither stay up nor wake up early to revise my revisions. I would ensure that Ive got 6 hours of deep sleep. Not skip breakfast and others.

Just to ensure that I can focus 100% at class. Anyway, to achieve success is not easy I tell ya :') We have to sacrifice everything in order to gain one thing. Do not lose hope to all my friends and me too.

Always remind yourself to tajdid niat. You learn not because you want to pass the exams. You learn to gain new knowledge in order for you to make it easier for your future course. InsyaAllah everything will be alright ;)

Convocation '16

Assalamualaikum wbt.

Yesterday was history, but it had left a deep meaning to my heart. Seniors's graduation day. I was impressed by them , students who were able to finish their studies successfully. Seeing them wearing those huge robes with round hats , how can I not teared up? Deep inside of my heart, I vowed to wear them gracefully in front of my family, insyaAllah 3 years to go :')

Many ppl from all Nation came to the Salah Kamil's hall.Their faces were glowy and shining brightly. They smiled broadly. Yes of course they would be up on cloud nine on this special event. Who doesn't, right?

I as one of the Representatives of Food and Beverages, did my chores. I was very busy going upstairs and  downstairs,back and forth to the cafe and vvip rooms to ensure that everything was running smoothly. Sometimes i peeked at the graduaters. Some were having breakfast w their families, some were chatting and giggling w their friends while others were nervous to wait for their turn.

Alhamdulillah the convo ended smoothly. We take a lot of pictures as memories. For the short post, I apologized as I am running out of ideas to write on this evening cloudy day :p

Surely will write a good one sometimes insyaAllah.

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The Almighty knows.

The words you cannot utter 

But keep in your heart.

The pain and sorrow hidden

Never doubt that His help is on the way. 

Praiseful.

Assalamualaikum wbt.

Last night, after finishing the PAD Program at Darul Hamka, Echa and me went to hadiqoh to finish up our Microbs homeworks. It was a cloudy and windy night plus me wearing only a piece of cloth without sweater. You feel me rite when a cup of hot syai does not feel hot anymore in my throat. That was how the weather can be described :)
Believe me, it is not the peak of winter but early winter. •.•

Back to the story, I craved for crispy chicken crepe later. We went to pizza iman and bought two crepes. Aww the taste was marvellous and perfectly fit with my appetite. You can say that I enjoyed the food too much when your friend realize that you smiled broadly when eating that.

It was late at night after fulfilled our stomach. We walked to our house. Otw I am happened to see a man( he looks matured) otp with his friend maybe. And he is really really small. I thought maybe he has abnormality in his anterior parathyroid gland that lead to a dwarfism.

I ponder to myself. Suddenly I felt so sad. How can I who is perfectly perfect, have complete pencaindera yet still not thankful enough to Allah. Still want more. Meanwhile, outside there were too many ppl who are praiseful and proud with their weakness and live peacefully.

Yes, Allah tak tengok pun orang tu lawa ke tak, pandai ke tak, baik ke tak untuk Dia masukkan kita ke dalam syurga. Allah tak pandang pun semua tu. Hanya amalan-amalan jariah yang kita buat kat dunia nie yang Allah nilai. Let's collect the pahala together so we can go to Jannah together :')

Sedangkan orang luar yg cacat, yg kurang upaya boleh bersyukur dan bahagia dengan hidup mereka, why not us? So, kadang2 we should lihat orang yg di bawah kita in order for us to reflect our life. Jgn tengok orang atas kita. Sampai bila tak bahagia kan? :)

So, I hope that weols can always be thankful to Allah, believe in Allah and always remember Him in everything we do. In everything that we do, utamakan Allah. Make Allah is priority to us. InsyaAllah with the remembrance of Allah, our heart is at peace.

Ive got a lot in my mind, but till now I should stop. Jiwa yang bahagia itu jiwa yang bersyukur :)

Tuesday
3/11(4.14am)

Random.

The moment when you accidentally delete your post which you had spent a lot of ideas and time to write on it. 
Senyum. Ada hikmah tu :) 

To be a better person.

Assalamualaikum wbt

So today, Ive got positive vibes from my friends and environments by pondering about this temporary life and eternal life hereafter.

CHANGE. It is a simple word but left a very deep meaning to me. This one general word could have variety meaning to other peeps.

I bet everyone in this world would love to change themselves to be a better person. Yeah same goes to me. :)

I wanna change my bad habits
I wanna wake up early in the morning
Go to university early
Active in the class
Not sleepy when lecturer teach in front
Prayer berjemaah with friend
Make a lot of sunnatullah
Smile to everyone
Polite with each other
No jealousy among friends
Can get mumtaz continuosly
Respect older people
And too many to mention i bet I cannot even finished my bucketlist tonight :p

So here we are. As an inperfect creation of Allah we demand for too many perfection. We wanna look perfect on peoples eyes but does Allah look at us in the same way? Indeed pleasing human is very difficult, pleasing Allah is the easiest. 

Arab Lughah Jannah.

Assalamualaikum wbt.

So today, I have learned something which can motivate me to explore the Arab Ammi in Egypt. Currently I am a preclinical 2nd year dentistry and guess what, I will enter clinical year next year. Time flies, right? 

So by having to deal with arabic, his teeth, behaviour and dx cultures, I guess I need to put a little more extra effort for my clinical year soon.

So Ive decided to enter ammi's class this year. InsyaAllah I can learn quickly if I tajdid niat to learn ammi. May single times I spent to gain knowledge will be rewarded by Allah. Aminnn.

time is gold?

Assalamualaikum wbt.

So here's my new post.
Time is gold?
Why does time has to fly so fast
I can still feel that it was yesterday I went back to Malaysia
Now it's already about 2 months Im here
How time flies :(

Friendship.

Assalamualaikum wbt.

One thing that concern me the most today. FRIENDS.

I have been far away from my family since I am 13yo. I know very well how friends can influence our life. How do I know? Because I have already experienced all type of sweet and sour of friendship(smile). 

Currently I am studying dentistry in Egypt. Being far far away from my family, guess who are the person whom I am closest to, always being with them, studying together, eating together and spend time a lot? They are like my second family here. Who are them? Friends :) Yes they are.

BUT, how was your reaction when they betray you at the back? When they pretend to be very polite and close to you in front, but mocking you at the back. It was sad right? Who doesnt hurt when we have friends like this :')

Once I have experienced one friend who is one of my "bestfriend". She is very close to me. Being together everywhere, anywhere and wherever. But someday, she shows me her truself. For two years of our friendship, she finally bombed out all of her unsatisfied things about me by a letter with 5 pages, with red ball pen. It was about 1/2 weeks before SPM examination. I couldn't even finished reading her letter because every word she said, is killing me. And it was harsh for me for someone who is my bestfriend.

So, please. Whoever I may have known for 20yo living in this world, please. Appreciate your friend. If you found someone who truly cares for you, dont ever leave her. Because a girl's heart is very fragile. Believe me, I am easily touched over a small little thing. Maybe that's why Allah has stated in Al-Quran to not ever hurt womens feelings.

Stay strong.

appreciation.

It's scary that one day we're going to have to live without out mother or father or brother or husband or wife. 

Or that one day we're going to have to walk this earth without our best friend by our side, or them without us. 

Appreciate your loved ones while you can, because non of us are going to be here forever.

champion.

To get up when you are down

to fight more intensely when you are struggling

to put in the extra effort when you are in sheer pain

to come back when nobody expects you to

and to stand tall when everyone is pulling you down

are what make a champion.

Apoorve Dubey

strong.

Definition of  "strong" :-

Strong doesn't mean
you never cry
you keep everything to yourself
and pretend to be okay

you can cry 
you can break
you can let someone know
and you can mess up
all that matters is that no matter
what life throws at you
you get back up and keep fighting
that's what being strong is.

08.08

throwback.

23th June '15 :-

As my final written exam has finished, I rushed towards the renthouse. I began to pack all the necessities and put them into a small luggage. The weather outside was cold, windy and dark. Upon arriving at Cairo airport at night, my mind flew away. It was actually beyondly exciting to begin my winterbreaks.

xxxxx

I boarded Turkish Airlines. The destination was Dublin, Ireland but I transitted at Istanbul for about 2 hours.

Arriving at Dublin Airport, OMG the weather was freaking cold. I can feel the numbness on my phalanges and my lips. I board the bus to go to Galway. Nawhh the bus was amazingly cool with the free wifi and a very polite bus driver.

the bus that i board

the weather was freaking cold on noon

After about 3 hours on the bus, finally I have reached Galway. This city is much more smaller than Dublin. The main attractions here are NUI, Cliffs of Moher, Dunguaire Castle, Alwee Cave, Poulnabrone Thomb and others. So, here is where I stay during my two nights at Galway.

mostly the house in this area are shaped like these. cool rite?

dining room, simple and nice one *twothumbsup

this one is the kitchen. spacious, and i bet we can cook all day in this spacious room :p

the dining room from this angle

this one is the main door to go outside

park

After finishing our prayers and rest for a while, my friends and I went to NUI and Corrib River, leaded by our friends in Galway. At that time, it was already dawn, and we cannot go to many places due to the darkness and we ourselves were tired for not having much sleep keke. 

Upon arriving at Corrib river, woahh I was completely stunned, gazing at the beautiful scenery and the calm river. How about the weather? Cooold too much I bet I cannot overcome this cold weather even if I wear 10 clothes inside >.<

Hello sunshine

my travelmates

Corrib river

creation of Allah <3 br="">

After strolling around Corrib river, I went to NUI which is the university the seniors are studying at. It is a comfortable, modern and beautiful place, not far away from the Corrib river. It even has a mosque for all Muslims to pray :)

Not long after that, I went back to the house, prepare to pray, al-Mulk and sleep.

Zzzzz...

xxxxx

WHAT HAPPENED TOMORROW? STAY TUNED WITH ME! :D

ponder

Sometimes,
in your lowest moments 
when you feel most helpless
Allah reveals a treasure to you 
when you least expect it.

It might be a friendship that blossom
because of a need
a deeper insight into life's meanings
a sudden attachment to the Quran
a tear that you learn to shed in supplication
etc.

But surely,
when Allah takes something away from you
He gives you something greater in it's place.

pray.

Pray when it hurts
When you are so down on your luck
and you want someone to turn to.

Pray when you are happy
When you finally got all that you wanted and even more.

Pray when you are lost and confused
When you have no idea what's right or wrong.

Pray to fill in the spaces, the gaps.
Pray constantly and fervently in search of peace of mind and stability.

Europe trip

I'm too lazy to write,
And I bet, you are too lazy to read.

So, just scroll down and stare ;)

Harrods, London

we're going to ride tube xD

Chicken citrus, Marrakesh

It's a cold nite XD

Wollaton park, Notts

hello, sunshine!

so peaceful :)

follow my footsteps, i will lead to de right path ;)

Do u wanna build a snowman?

Wollaton Hall - the place where batman filmed the scene

Wassup London :)

Big Ben

Eye of London

Glendalough, Dublin

let's explore manchester babyy xD

amazing place to shop yeah

around the Leeds 

four musketeers

qtpies <3 td="">

it's windy + cold day !

3 pounds baby 

lets us stroll here~

wish you were here

goodbye birminghan

let's swayy 

tranquility overload

snowy day, my lips and feet are totally numb

0 degree at  Notts

chicken and cheese on snowy day

freaking cold

can't wait to explore you, Dublin xD

kak awi's feeding me w her burfday cake

ponder

park during dawn

alwee castle

wat are u looking at yeah

gud place w gud ppl :)

manage to snap this pic on bus during our way to Cliff of Moher

awwwh i just love the greenery scenery here in Galway

peace.love.live.

another awkward post 

<3 td="">

on the rock

let's stop for a while and take a picture 

Cliff of Mohers baby!

i fall in luv with  this fascinating amazing scenery of Ire

the wind was beyondly strong during that day

3 out of 9 peeps

can u see the cliff? believe me, it was so hard to go there :)

they are a step backward or im just a step forward?

i wish to come here again 

castle on the cliff :)

i wanna have a time machine to go back here

the weather was just tooo cold, freaking cold it is

peaceee

picnic on a cold weather, fun it is

Trinity College Dublin

the best butlers hot chocolate eva at Dublin

glendalough has amazing view

stick together

hai Notts, ur beautiful :)

in the park

big tree in front of Nottingham University

great day at Notts

There's like thousads of pictures but these are the one that I like the most, haha.

The trip was beyondly amazing. It's been ages since we can have this fascinating trips.

Wow, we're all growing up so rapidly. Time flies!

Besides that, London is the city of fashion! You MUST be a shopaholic if you live there!

and Ireland, incredibily a beautiful country :)

Enjoyed my holidays though, and I hope you're the same!

xx

PS: Click the picture for a better quality.

23thJan-1stFeb '15